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2017-06-01 11:42 pm

*shuffles feet* Um, Hi?

So, i've kind of been MIA for the past couple of months. I've missed birthdays, stopped commenting, stopped posting, just... stopped. See, my laptop stopped working (technology tends to do this around me, seriously, ask my family, they all agree it's the weirdest phenomenon); the screen suddenly decided to show me nothing but white fuzz, and while it worked when I hooked it up to the TV, that didn't really help much except for when I wanted to stream something to watch. So, no writing, no LJ scrolling, and no fic reading either (because I can't get that shit to work on my phone).

Then, Ben became ill, like, really ill. It turns out that his congenital hearing defect plus the accident he had as a child (he sliced his face off by falling through a window and had to have several reconstructive surgeries when he was a toddler) have combined to create a gaping hole behind his left eardrum, a hole that has now filled itself with a tumour. It's benign, which is a relief, but it's also still growing, and if it isn't removed soon it may start eating into his brain, so he has to have surgery. And it's a big one. They have to saw into his skull and remove the bone - from temple to an inch or so behind his ear, remove the tumour, then replace the skull. It's brain surgery basically, and we've all been kind of freaking out about it. Luckily, due to Ben's profession, we're not exactly going into this blind - my kids play with the kids of the surgeon who's going to be doing the operation - so we're a bit better prepared than others might be. But still, it's really freaking scary. Add to that my own operation - ablation for my women parts - and we're all kind of floundering a little bit.

And then, my Tumblr account unexpectedly blew up. Turns out, some (probably nice, I keep telling myself they're probably nice) person screencapped a post I wrote about Eryn 3 years ago about something cool she did at school once. So now, I'm being bombarded with hate messages, people telling me I'm a liar, that I'm an attention seeker, a bitch, I should fuck off and die, that my daughter should fuck off and die. Someone even told me I was fat which, while they're not wrong, was a little disturbing. Of course, I've also gotten some lovley messages of support too, but they're being buried by the hate. I've tried to look at it all pragmatically, because intellectually I know that anon hate is just a thing that people do because they can and that it's not really about me, but it's taken a bit of a toll. I find myself flinching a little whenever I log on, just waiting for the new influx of hateful things people have decided I deserve today. It's made me feel a bit nervous of fandom in general, actually.

BUT, now I have a new laptop that actually works (for the time being). I'm glad I managed to get it sorted out now, because I would have hated to have missed out on signing up for [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised ! So, now I'm going to catch up on some fics I've missed out on, and remind myself that fandom can be awesome! I've missed you guys!


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2017-04-05 10:23 am

WTF LJ

So, like everyone else seems to be doing, I have made an account on DreamWidth and am in the process of importing my LJ posts over here. I hope I've done it right *fingers crossed*. I'm still figuring out how this new site works (is there a friends page? How do I find people?) but hopefully I'll work it out. With any luck I'll have done the crossposting thing right, so if you feel like following me over here, please feel free to do so - mainly because I suspect that it will be easier for me to find you guys that way! So yeah, do that.

I am currently dying of a cold that has lodged itself in my sinuses, and I feel like I am about to sneeze 100% of the time. But at least the weather's nice, so I am able to put my washing out on the line, which is nice. The girls are all gorgeous, horrible little brats as usual, and Ben is his usual grumpy asshole self, and absolutely nothing has changed in my life since my last post. When did I get so boring?
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2017-03-28 11:30 pm

IMPORTANT PSA FOR ALL H/D WRITERS!!

Someone has made a collection on AO3 and has kept them 'unrevealed' without telling the authors.

I received a comment on another fic of mine, letting me know that my story for last year's [livejournal.com profile] dracotops_harry fest had been added to a collection entitled 'Drarry', and that they could no longer view it, even though they had previously commented and bookmarked it. When I checked, I found that it had disappeared from my list of works, and the collection had at least 20 other unrevealed works in its list. I suspect that the creator has probably made a mistake, making a 'collection' of their favourite stories, without realising what an actual collection does to the fic itself. It's easy enough to fix - I just went in and removed my fic from the collection - but unless you know to look for it, you won't know that your fics aren't viewable. So, just letting you know that you might want to check your backlists and see if any are missing so you can remove it from the collection.

And if some people could repost this on their journals/tumblr/etc., that would be awesome, because I know there are many awesome H/D fic writers out there that don't have me on their flists!
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2017-03-05 01:54 pm

(late) fic claim: Ribbons and Bows; Grey and White

Just a quick post to claim the two fics that I wrote for [livejournal.com profile] hd_owlpost this year:

Title: Ribbons and Bows
Recipient: [livejournal.com profile] kitty_fic
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 1586
Summary: Harry comes home from work to a prettily wrapped surprise.

Title: Grey and White
Recipient: [livejournal.com profile] vaysh
Rating: G
Word Count: 3 x 100
Summary: The world outside is grey and white.

Thank you to everyone who commented or recced or left kudos! And for those of you who have not yet seen the marvelous gift [livejournal.com profile] potteresque_ire made for me (and if not, seriously, where have you been? It's the bestest thing ever oh my God), here is a handy link: 9 Days of Snowmen. Go and scream about it and then leave lots of love!
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2017-02-13 09:12 am

*waves sheepishly*


Happy Monday, everyone! I hope everyone had a good weekend? It's a good day for me, because I finally have my laptop back, yay!! *jumps up and down* I'd just decided that I was going to try and post at least once a week, even if it was only to say "I have nothing to say", because I'm trying really hard this year not to just withdraw and go quiet on people, and then my laptop broke. It took Ben a couple of weeks to get around to looking at it for me, but it's up and running again now - although just barely, and I'm going to need a new one soon. But at least I now have something to type on, even if I am frantically backing up everything I write to gdocs just in case the laptop dies permanently. So anyway, hi!

Reading woes (here, have a random rant):

Has anyone ever read something that has made them so angry they're speechless? Because I did that last night, and I'm still not over it. The book was written by one of my favourite m/m writers too, which made it doubly shocking. I tried really hard to get the anger out in a GR review, but then I stupidly read the other reviews and I got angry all over again! Basically, the MC's love interest is this emotionally abusive cuntweasel (a word I used a lot in my review, because it fit so eloquently), but for some reason everyone else seems to think that's hot. "He's so awesome, so patient, so sweet, why is this book so short I need more Jack!!" UGH, so gross. And I'm so mad about it.

Comment woes (less of a rant, more thinky thoughts):

I got another weird comment on my bonding!fic, Unexpected Consequences the other day:

Fantastic drarry. Hermione turning into a Draco fangirl was not my favorite though. In particular her making excuses at the Burrow was entirely offputting given Draco nearly killing Ron and being the reason a werewolf could maimed Bill for like. That was shockingly unbelievable in an otherwise epic fic.

Still all in all well done.

And at first I wasn't too bothered, because I thought the 'complaint' (for want of a better word) was written respectfully, and everyone's entitled to their opinion, so I just replied with my own and a 'thanks for reading'. But the more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I get, especially after I went back to the moment in question in the fic and reread it. Because all Hermione does is agree with Harry's reasons for agreeing to the bonding spell with Malfoy, and helps him come up with ways to make sure that no advantage is taken of him while in that position of powerlessness under Harry. That doesn't sound like a 'fangirl' to me, but just a basic decent human being who cares about people's rights - the rights of all people, not just the ones she thinks deserves them. And I guess it makes me a little uncomfortable to think about, because the Trio are meant to be these shining examples of humanity at its best, doing the right thing because it's the right thing to do, and if these people aren't supposed to respect whomever they come across, what does that say about us all? I just... can't stop thinking about it I guess, and I'm probably thinking way too deeply about one person's opinion of my stupid little fanfic, but I guess I just... don't understand.

Okay, now I'm gonna go do some work in the hopes of getting paid, and then try to read a book that won't give me a rage conniption! Have a great start to the week, guys! <33
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2017-02-01 09:54 am

Help I have a new character crush!

So, how many of you guys have discovered the delight of the show Crazy Ex Girlfriend ? Because let me tell you, it is the BEST thing ever!!! For those of you that don't know, the show is about a Jewish, successful New York lawyer who, while in the middle of a nervous breakdown, accidentally runs into an ex-boyfriend that she hasn't seen since she was 16. The next thing she knows, she's moving from NYC to California, convinced that if she can just get back together with Josh Chan, her life will be perfect. AND, because her mental breakdown is happening in the style of a musical (because being in a musical during college is the last time she can remember being happy) she and everyone else around her sings songs, hilarious, ridiculous, sometimes fourth wall breaking songs. So anyway, season 1 was fucking fantastic, but I kind of lost a bit of love for the show after one of my fave characters left, but the other day I was catching up, and the New Guy sang his first song, and I AM IN LOVE SEND H E L P. He's gorgeous, and he sings beautifully, and also there was a discussion in an elevator about the Harry Potter books and he proudly admitted he was a Slytherin and I can't help it, I just love him!! His song was a fantastic and hilarious parody of Ed Sheeran's Thinking Out Loud, and honestly, Rachel Bloom is my idol, because this woman writes, composes, acts, sings, dances, directs, AND produces, and I don't understand how one person can be so talented.

But ANYWAY, here, look at this wonderful song and then go watch the show if you haven't already! And if you have, please let me unleash all of my Nathaniel Plimpton feels all over you!

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2017-01-22 11:48 pm

weird comments are really fucking weird...

Do you guys ever get a comment where you read it and just think, what is the point of that?? I got one on one of my time travel fics, and I'm just sitting here scratching my head, going whaa?? This is what they wrote:

okay but now what youve got here is a paradox. if harry kissed draco coz of the future, then why did the original harry kiss draco? because he wouldn't have seen a future in which he immediately kissed draco because he hadn't kissed draco in his future.

Like, okay?? But did you like it or?? Do you have anything to add that isn't just pointing out the general point of a time travel fic? HOW DO I EVEN REPLY TO THIS?

People are really fucking weird sometimes, y'all.
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2017-01-19 08:11 pm

Okay, someone remind me...

... Is [livejournal.com profile] dracotops_harry one of those fests where submission is open ended? As in, if I don't sign up immediately but before posting begins I've managed to create a fic that fits an unclaimed prompt, would they accept it as a submission?

It's just, the last time I wrote for this fest, I didn't have a great time, and I later worked out that it was due to the sexual dynamics restrictions - I write both Top!Harry and Top!Draco in my fics, and sometimes as switches, and it all depends on the story I'm trying to tell. BUT, I've had a look at the prompts list, and found a couple that have intrigued me... I'm just not sure I can commit if I don't know that the story will take me to a Top!Draco place, if that makes sense? I just don't want to waste the mods' time by saying 'hey, yeah, I'll do this one!', only for me to either have to drop out or have a miserable time trying to get words out on something that doesn't feel right, you know?

I know I've talked about this before, but I can't remember which fests worked like this and which didn't, and I can't find the damn post to check, so if someone could help me out, I'd be grateful! <3
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2017-01-09 06:04 pm

Erised Fic Claim: Five Weddings and a Potions Accident

It's reveals time!! And yep, this was my fic! Honestly, I'm surprised mine wasn't the most well-guessed on the poll because of all the LEANING Draco did, haha! I'm always making him lean in my fics *happy sigh*. I had such fun writing this story, and this is absolutely all down to [livejournal.com profile] capitu's wonderful help. I was floundering and frustrated until she came along, and she turned it into a joy to write. This fic would literally not exist without her invaluable help, and I owe her all the cookies and hugs in the world! I'm so so happy that [livejournal.com profile] themightyflynn enjoyed her gift, and I was seriously overwhelmed by the response it's gotten - so many comments and recs! I've been squealing like a kid on Christmas morning over every single one. Thank you all so much!!

One thing I did want to mention, because a couple of people commented on it specifically: Verity, the stunning, sexy date of Harry's. I'm not entirely sure where she came from, but I kind of fell hard for her, and I'm so glad she stood out to readers too - as a plump, softly inviting girl myself, that positive response means more to me than I can express. I love you guys.



Title: Five Weddings and a Potions Accident
Recipient: [livejournal.com profile] themightyflynn
Pairing(s): Harry/Draco (side Ron/Hermione; Dean/Seamus; Ginny/Blaise; Neville/Hannah; Luna/Susan)
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~19,500
Warnings: A lot of sex, and boys being oblivious
Content/Enticements: Auror!Harry and Healer!Draco
Summary: In which Harry thinks he’s a playboy, everyone else knows better, and Hermione will kill Seamus if Ron tries to collect on that bet.
Author's Notes: To my dear giftee: After stalking your LJ, my brain kind of latched on to the idea of Auror!Harry and Healer!Draco, and this was somehow the result. There’s rather more sex than I usually write, so err, ‘sorry’ and/or ‘you’re welcome’, I guess? The biggest thanks to my Alpha reader, who singlehandedly turned this process from a frustrating chore into a joyful challenge, and to my beta, who somehow always manages to find time for me. Any remaining mistakes are my own, and absolutely nothing to do with these two wonderful ladies. Kisses to the mods for yet another wonderful fest. Enjoy!
Disclaimer: All Harry Potter characters herein are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No copyright infringement is intended.
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2017-01-03 08:14 am
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2017 goals

Happy New Year everybody! I've decided to write down my personal goals for 2017, in the hopes that it will push me to complete them, so, here we go!

  1. Quit smoking. I'm currently on day 3 of this, and it's going quite well, actually. I'm getting moments where I desperately want a cigarette, of course, but they're not too often. It's also not as hard to write as I thought it would be - I chainsmoke when I write - so that's a definite plus!

  2. Quit Diet Coke/eat healthier. I am hopefully having an operation some time this year, and I want to be as healthy as possible for it - it's gonna hammer me to pieces as it is, I don't need to also be overweight and prone to illness too.

  3. Complete at least one room in the house. I always start decorating a room, and then move on to something else before finishing it, which means I have a bunch of half-finished rooms and it's driving me crazy. I'm going to do it this year, though.

  4. Finish an Original Story. I have about a dozen of these things hanging around, and my goal is to finish at least one, to the point where I can send it out for submission.

I also signed up for the GR reading challenge, and I put myself down for 200 books, which averages out at around 4 books a week. I'm hoping that at least some of these will be the ones still sitting on my TBR shelf, rather than jjust Kindle re-reads (I do that a lot).

I've seen a lot of you talking about Dreamwidth, and cross-posting there, just in case the server move does something nasty with our LJs. I'm going to look into that and see if it looks like something I can achieve without getting too frustrated.

I hope you all have a wonderful start to the year, and that 2017 is better for us all than last year was! <333
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2016-12-18 02:54 pm
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It's Christmas Time, and I'm rushed off my feet...

Hello everybody!

Wow, it's been ages since I last posted, but with the exception of being busy with RL and busy writing gifts for various holiday fests, I haven't really had that much to say. It's all been same old, same old, you know? But now, with Christmas nearly here (fucking shit, I still have so much to do!), I thought I'd use this spare half hour I've found to have a chat with you guys! <3

The bad stuff first: It was Ben's office Christmas party on Friday, and it's always great fun. They rent out a hotel for the night, and we drink and dance and chat and drink some more, before stumbling up to bed in one of the rooms, and then we get breakfast with everyone in the morning before going home. And of course, because this is my life, my period started the morning of. So instead of partying with Ben's friends and colleagues, I was in and out of the loo and suffering cramps and generally feeling uncomfortable the entire night. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME. Holidays, parties, anniversaries, weddings, you name it, I'll have my period on it, because my body hates me. UGH.

But that wasn't the worst of the night, oh no! I also went to get my hair cut, because I like to have my hair looking lovely and straight every so often, but my usual hairdresser wasn't there on Friday, so I got someone else. I asked him to cut off the bleached blonde on the end - he left an inch of it. I asked for long layers - he didn't clarify how long, and instead gave me basic layers. I asked him to blow dry it straight - instead he just ran a dryer through it and then brought out the straighteners for a full five minutes. The upshot is that I now have layers shorter than my chin, with an extra clump left at the bottom like some kind of fucked up mullet, with an inch of blonde at the ends of my very dark hair, and instead of my hair being silky smoth and straight, it was fluffy and fuzzy, with a middle part, something that I haven't had since I was 8 years old. It's an absolute fucking nightmare, and I washed it again as soon as I got home hoping that the curls would hide the worst of it, but it still looks completely horrific, so now I'm going to have to keep my hair up for the next 3 months until the layers grow out again. I seriously want to kill him, oh my God.

And the good stuff: I'm making a Christmas hamper for my mum as a present this year, and I went shopping to see if I could get everything, and I managed to get the whole lot, including the basket and the trimmings, in one trip! I am nearly done with ALL of my Chrsitmas gift shopping, and what I don't have yet I at least know what's left to get, so I'm feeling very accomplished right now.

I got some lovely gifts over at [livejournal.com profile] hd_owlpost! I'm waiting until the end of the fests to pimp them out, because I figure everyone's reading whatever they have time for right now, and will appreciate a few recs once everything's finished. But I adored them! One was a comment on one of my earlier fics, and it seriously made me cry, it was so fucking lovely!

I got a Christmas bonus this year, as my company has being doing well recently (it's been a few years since the last one) and we've decided to spend it on a holiday next year. We're still thinking about where to go - Eryn and I both fancy a Greek island, but the others are talking about the US. No offence guys, but I'd really rather be flying in the opposite direction to Trump if I can possibly help it.

I'm writing again! More specifically, I'm re-writing the original story that I lost earlier this year, which feels so wonderful. It was such a massive hit to my muse, and I've found it so difficult to concentrate on anything else, because the story has been nagging at me while my brain has been too busy crying over the loss to begin again, so the fact that I've been able to make a start has been a huge relief. Maybe I'll actually get to finish it next year!

I now have two days left to finish getting ready for Christmas, because we go to Ireland on Wednesday to begin our celebrations. Hopefully I'll get everything done in time, although I suspect I'll be taking stuff still unwrapped as I usually do every year. One of these years I shall become more organised! I won't be online much over the next ten days or so, so if my [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised gift posts during then, my comment may be a couple of days late, just as a warning.

I hope you all have wonderful holidays, and I'll see you all in the New Year! ♥ ♥ ♥
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2016-10-28 10:23 pm

Top/bottom Sexual Dynamics and My Preferences

I’ve been thinking about writing a post about this for quite a while, mainly because every time I sign myself up to a gift fic fest such as [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised, I am never entirely sure what I want to say when it comes to my preferences. I mean, if anyone were to ask me which I prefer, I would say Top!Harry/bottom!Draco, however, some of my favourite H/D fics ever feature explicit Top!Draco/bottom!Harry, and I’ve been trying to figure out why that is for the longest time. And so, as I’m currently in the home stretch of my Erised fic and have a lot of other projects that could do with some time being spent on them, I am of course procrastinating terribly by thinking about this instead so, here I am!


Read more... )


Okay, I’m gonna go write now, because I’ve procrastinated long enough (damn it). Back to your regularly scheduled Friday night on LJ!
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2016-10-10 09:31 pm

Winter Is Coming, and bringing the goddamn plague with it

Why oh, why is the onset of winter always heralded by viruses of every kind you can think of? Well okay, I know why, so nobody throw any science books at me, but ugh, I wish that just once I could appreciate the lovely colours and fresh breezes that the changing of the seasons bring without also wishing I was dead. Ben's been suffering from an ear infection that just won't go away, so I've had to suffer along with him while he's been at home the last two weeks. Eryn has got a hacking cough to rival that of the best chainsmoker, keeping us all up at night while she barks and barks until she almost throws up. Imogen has caught a stomach bug from somewhere, and has been spending the last three days sprawled across my lap and searing me with her fevered skin, and I can't breathe without needing to sneeze, or sniff, or cough, or just generally gargle snot until I drown in it. Madison is the only one who seems unaffected, and we all hate her quite a lot right now.

On the plus side, I have managed to start my [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised fic, after months of planning but without the actual words. Well, now I have words - not to mention an awesome alpha reader and cheerleader, whom I am going to owe the biggest present ever by the time I'm done. I also have another H/D fic in the works, which I might just post on its own - which I've never done before, all my previous fics have been either birthday gifts or fest submissions. Of course, I'm also busily planning my gifts for [livejournal.com profile] hd_owlpost, which I'll get around to writing once the Erised behemoth is completed. I've been writing more original fic too, my muse having finally returned after the 60k loss earlier this year. I'm struggling with a hundred different ideas, which is better than staring at a blank page wanting to cry, so, progress!

And, I think that's pretty much all I have to update, really, other than my RL being crazy busy lately. I know I haven't been around much, and I've missed you all, not to mention things like birthdays and mini fests and [livejournal.com profile] online_bookclub reviews and chats, and don't you just hate that feeling when you remember something only to find it's too late for you to do anything for it? Yeah, that's pretty much my life right now, which sucks, but it's looking like it might let up a bit soon, which will be great, because I'm really looking forward to reading all the lovely fics that always come out this time of year!

Hope you're all doing well, my flisties! ♥ ♥
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2016-08-30 10:31 pm

Mid-thirties just hit me like a truck to the face...

Hello everybody! Long time no see, I know, but I've been so fucking busy the past few months, something had to give and it had to be fandom, because life sucks, basically. I'm still only really here for a fleeting moment, but I really wanted to say a massive thank you to the lovely people who sent me birthday messages yesterday, especially those of you whom I know I missed doing exactly that recently with as busy as I have been. So, THANK YOU, my darling, lovely, wonderful friends, and replies to those messages are forthcoming, I promise!

I actually had a really nice birthday, despite the chaos in which I am currently living! I was taken out to dinner at a very fancy restaurant, and we even managed to encourage my teenager to come out of her bedroom for a few hours - which is a very big feat indeed. Eryn got her GCSE results through last week, and she did just as brilliantly as we'd expected, and since then there's been a flurry of activity in getting her ready to begin sixth-form college next week. Oh, and she got her eyebrow pierced, because heaven forbid she look ordinary. It actually goes quite nicely with her blue hair. Madison started at secondary school today, and so far, so good. They've placed her in a class filled with students from her old school, which they did on purpose in order to keep her comfortable. They're really pulling out all the stops for her, which is nice to see in our current education system - they don't usually work quite so hard. Hopefully, she'll settle in nicely. I've got my fingers crossed.

I'm currently struggling between two stories to write for [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised, and I haven't had time to bounce ideas off my beta yet, but I'm really hoping I'll find some time over the next couple of weeks. The good news is that I have at least written a couple k of each story idea so far, so there is some progress happening.

Aaaaand my time is up, because now the baby is calling for me and Ben needs me to iron something for him (men are the worst, I swear). So anyway, just a quick note to let y'all know I am in fact still alive, and to say thanks once again for such lovely birthday messages - every one of them made me smile!

Hope you're all doing great, my lovelies! <3
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2016-07-29 09:36 pm

Why so stressed, brain?

Oh my God, I'm so excited for [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised, guys! I fucking love this fest, every year I've participated has been so much fun, and I can't wait to get down to it all over again! However, my brain being such a special place, the whole sign-up process leaves me feeling like I've just run a marathon backwards while juggling watermelons and singing a song in a language I don't even know. I'm ridiculous, tbh.

  1. First of all, last night I dreamt that I'd missed the sign-up time, because all of you lot (looking like your icons, btw, it was fairly awesome actually) kept tripping me up and poking me in my ribs while I tried frantically to type. ([livejournal.com profile] birdsofshore, your beak is really fucking sharp, mate. Ouch.)

  2. THEN I yelled at the kids to get out of the house so we could be back in time for 2pm, only for me to COMPLETELY forget until 1:58pm.

  3. I was in such a hurry that I dropped my laptop down the stairs, left it there and ran onto my kids' computer, nearly throwing the keyboard out of the window because I couldn't remember my bloody LJ password.

  4. I was like 2 minutes past 2pm, and already like a dozen spaces had been filled!

Jesus fucking Christ, people, how fast are you all?

Luckily though, I got in in time, only for my anxiety to shoot through the roof again when I got an email from the mods about something I'd left off the form, but of course the first thing I think is that they missed my comment the first count through and so I was out, or they've just decided they'd really rather I didn't bother them this year. This is nothing against the mods, btw, who are all wonderful, beautiful geniuses, it's just how my weird-ass brain works - I literally spent the first few months at university convinced that any second someone was going to come up and tell me they'd made a mistake and could I just save everyone some embarrassment and go home now, please?

But anyway, now the stressful part is over! (For me, anyway, I'm sure it's just getting started for our poor mods!) So, now I'm going to go bounce around my house while I wait for my assignment!

Have a great weekend, my lovelies! ♥
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2016-07-07 01:57 pm

Life Update!

It's been forever since I last posted on here, although I've been around, I just haven't had much to say. Also, I've been incredibly busy! You'd think that in the run up to summer holidays, things would begin winding down, but apparently, just when my brain has gone all sluggish in preparation for having the kids at home for a month and a half, the schools decide that this is the moment when they want me to do things! Ugh!

Eryn has finished all of her exams, and is now waiting impatiently for her results. She's been to her new college to have a look around and meet her new teachers, and has tentatively decided on her A level subjects, depending on what her results are: English Lit, English Lang, History and Sociology. However, considering the fact that this child wouldn't be caught dead reading a book, I think she's somehow decided that I'll be doing the work for her. Hmm... I had to organise her "anti-prom" (because she didn't want to go to the official one - she had no interest in wearing clothes she doesn't like, while listening to music she can't stand and talking to people she hopes never to set eyes on again), and she and her friends had a barbeque down by the canal, and they seemed to have had a great time. We're now in the process of bleaching her hair, because she wants to dye it blue/green, and she looks very weird with the current blonde - although she was born white-blonde, it's been a while since we've seen her with that colour. Also, she has a girlfriend, a really sweet girl who looks at Eryn as though she's hung the bloody moon. It's so cute!

Madison has done her SATs exams, and we should be getting those results soon. Because she's moving up to senior school in September, the past few weeks have been a flurry of school outings and parties, as well as visiting her new school to meet her new teachers. There was a bit of a fracas with that - one particular teacher who didn't yet know that Madison is on the Autism scale told her off for something, which ending in a bit of a meltdown, but thankfully it doesn't seem to have dulled her excitement. They're putting her straight into the Gifted and Talented teaching track, which has the double effect of being a bit quieter for her at the same time as giving her enough work to satisfy her, which should be good. She's got her prom next week, and we've still yet to buy her a dress for it, so we've got to go shopping this weekend. Maybe I'll get a second to myself in a few weeks' time...

Imogen has had their hair cut into a little pixie cut. We pretty it up with clips and bows for when she's a girl, and put gel in it when he's a boy, and so far they love it. Their school report came out the other day, and apparently Imogen is really intelligent... if they could just stop daydreaming long enough to actually do some work. I have no idea what to do with this child, tbh.

I haven't been doing much in fandom recently, because even when I do get the odd hour to myself, I haven't really been feeling it. (I am still betaing though - I haven't forgotten about y'all, promise!) Instead, I've been reading, and trying to update my GR account. However, considering I own at least 4,000 books and have read a bajillion more, it's kind of a losing battle, but I'm trying! I still haven't been doing much writing, although I do intend to join in with [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised - if I get in on time! Losing those 65k words has really knocked my muse about. I have written about 10k of a new original story, but I'm not sure if I like it enough to keep going. I think if I could just recreate what I lost, I might get my groove back, but so far, nothing is really grabbing me. Ugh, I feel so pathetic to be still whining about this months later.

And er, that's it, I think? See, this is why I haven't been posting - I have nothing to say! Maybe I've just become a really boring person - does that happen to everybody once 35 begins staring at you on the horizon? Ugh, I'm so old and pathetic and boring, and I think I'm turning into my mother. Can someone please kill me
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2016-06-16 09:58 am
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MPREG Fic Claim: If at First You Don't Succeed...

Title: If at First you Don’t Succeed...
Prompt: PROMPT #3
Word Count: 6,000
Rating: NC-17
Contains (Highlight to view):A lot of bottom!Draco sex, for people who don’t like that.
Disclaimer: Harry Potter characters are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No profit is being made, and no copyright infringement is intended.
Epilogue compliant?: hah, please.
Who is pregnant?:Draco!
Summary: After five years of not wanting children, Draco suddenly changes his mind. Harry is totally on board with this new plan...

This was my pinch hit for the [livejournal.com profile] harrydracompreg fest! I had a great time writing it, and it actually gave my writing muse a good kick in the backside, which was very needed after pouting for so long over that lost story. I've been writing a bit recently, so I have [livejournal.com profile] kitty_fic to thank for asking me to join in, and all the people who read and left lovely comments!

Read on LJ

Read on teh AO3
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2016-05-17 11:47 am
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Life Update! (and a proud mama pic)

Wow, it seems like it's been ages since I've been on here! I haven't been avoiding everyone this time, though. It's just that the weather has been beautiful here recently (it's probably going to end up as our only couple of weeks of summer, because Britain sucks like that) so I've been outside as much as possible. Also, I haven't gotten around to going to see CA:CW yet, and I have been trying my best to avoid spoilers, so the internet has been a bit of a minefield in that respect. But anyway, here's what I've been up to recently!

Writing - I haven't been able to do very much, ever since I lost the 68k words of my OS a few weeks ago. Every time I try to recreate it, all I can think is that it was better the first time around, and I can't get more than a few sentences in before I delete the entire thing. I just don't think it's happening for me for a while yet. Which is a fucking shame, because I was kind of head over heels in love with that story. On the plus side though, I did manage to write a shortish fic for [livejournal.com profile] harrydracompreg, which is currently posting, and I quite liked how that came out, so that's progress, I guess? I've also started plotting out a potential prequel to the aforementioned Lost Story, in the hopes that if I can write that, then maybe my brain will let me rewrite the original in celebration. Who knows, man, brains are tricky little buggers.

Reading - I realised the other day that I have a ton of fics that I'd downloaded on to my Kindle and never got around to reading, so I've been going through those. I've also found a few new m/m authors that I really enjoy - and a few terrible ones, such is the crapshoot of this genre. I've read The Raven King, the last in The Raven Cycle series by Maggie Stiefvater, but I really need to read it again, because it was AWESOME. I also need to write a revamped post on Queer Rep in YA Fiction for a friend's book blog, now that the series is over, so that should be fun! Oh, and I've just managed to get my hands on a copy of The Martian Chronicles by Ray Bradbury form the library, for [livejournal.com profile] online_bookclub's May read. I have no idea if I'm going to like it though - scifi's not my favourite genre, unless it's tv shows anyway.

Parenting - So I have a picture to show you. A lot of y'all on my flist are also parents, so I know you know this phenomena we have about thinking our kids are the most gorgeous creatures to ever walk this earth. I mean, all babies are cute, and all kids are lovely, but our own babies have that something extra special, don't they? But sometimes, I take a picture of one of my girls, and the sheer beauty of them takes my breath away. I am, unfortunately, not much of a looker myself, but goddamn, I make fucking stunning looking children. Madison and I were playing with the features on her new phone, and I took a picture of Eryn (who turned 16 last month, send h e l p ), and this was the result:

Picture of my baby )
Like, omfg??? She should be on the Disney Channel or something, look at this precious angel I made from scratch. How she can possibly be shy when she looks like this I have absolutely no clue, but she is, which just makes her even more beautiful to me.

Okay, and that's it for me I think? Not much has been happening, except lots of sun which always makes me happy! Hope everyone else is feeling fine this lovely Tuesday morning! ♥
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2016-04-17 11:43 pm
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Sometimes life doesn't hand you lemons, it pelts you with them until you start bleeding internally..

I've been writing a book the past few weeks. For the first time in ages, I had the entire story mapped out in my head from start to finish, and every time I sat down to write, I knew exactly what I wanted to say and how to say it. I've been optimistic that THIS would be the time I would actually finish an original story. It was going great, I had 60k words written, and I was on the home stretch... and then Ben borrowed my laptop and closed down the word doc WITHOUT saving it, and now the entire thing is gone. SIXTY THOUSAND WORDS. Thinking about it even now is like a punch to the gut.

We took our kids to see my parents, because they came close to us on their new narrow boat, and my middle daughter fell backwards off the boat onto the tow path, and gave herself a concussion.

My eldest daughter is so stressed about her upcoming exams because the bloody school won't let her stay home for study leave that we had to rush her to hospital on Friday with a stomach ulcer.

And because all of this has been happening, I did my grocery shopping online, and they didn't deliver it yesterday. When I called to find out why, I got told that the delivery man knocked on the door and left a card when we didn't answer, but either he made that up or he went to the wrong address, because I was in the living room all day waiting for the fucker to get there and there is no bloody card.

And that was the point that I sort of just... broke. There I was, staring into the depths of my freezer and wondering what kind of meal I could make out of a bag of frozen peas and half a pack of mince, and I didn't even realise I was crying until Ben pulled me out of the kitchen and sat me down on the sofa. Which I then stayed sitting on, staring at the wall opposite for a good few hours. Funny how it's the little things that break you, isn't it?

You ever just want to meet God just so that you can junkpunch him? I kinda want to junkpunch God right now. Like, really fucking hard.
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2016-03-31 01:07 pm
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Help?

I'm trying to write something, and what I really need is some examples of a long drawn out penetrative sex scene. Does anyone have any fic recs with something like that in there? Any fandom, any slash pairing will do. I'm not going to plagiarize anything, obviously - I'll work out a way to kick myself in the face before I do anything like that - I just would like a sense of what to concentrate on, how to make it seem like it lasts longer than it takes to read the sentences, if that makes sense? If anyone could help me out, I would greatly appreciate it! ♥