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Why oh, why is the onset of winter always heralded by viruses of every kind you can think of? Well okay, I know why, so nobody throw any science books at me, but ugh, I wish that just once I could appreciate the lovely colours and fresh breezes that the changing of the seasons bring without also wishing I was dead. Ben's been suffering from an ear infection that just won't go away, so I've had to suffer along with him while he's been at home the last two weeks. Eryn has got a hacking cough to rival that of the best chainsmoker, keeping us all up at night while she barks and barks until she almost throws up. Imogen has caught a stomach bug from somewhere, and has been spending the last three days sprawled across my lap and searing me with her fevered skin, and I can't breathe without needing to sneeze, or sniff, or cough, or just generally gargle snot until I drown in it. Madison is the only one who seems unaffected, and we all hate her quite a lot right now.

On the plus side, I have managed to start my [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised fic, after months of planning but without the actual words. Well, now I have words - not to mention an awesome alpha reader and cheerleader, whom I am going to owe the biggest present ever by the time I'm done. I also have another H/D fic in the works, which I might just post on its own - which I've never done before, all my previous fics have been either birthday gifts or fest submissions. Of course, I'm also busily planning my gifts for [livejournal.com profile] hd_owlpost, which I'll get around to writing once the Erised behemoth is completed. I've been writing more original fic too, my muse having finally returned after the 60k loss earlier this year. I'm struggling with a hundred different ideas, which is better than staring at a blank page wanting to cry, so, progress!

And, I think that's pretty much all I have to update, really, other than my RL being crazy busy lately. I know I haven't been around much, and I've missed you all, not to mention things like birthdays and mini fests and [livejournal.com profile] online_bookclub reviews and chats, and don't you just hate that feeling when you remember something only to find it's too late for you to do anything for it? Yeah, that's pretty much my life right now, which sucks, but it's looking like it might let up a bit soon, which will be great, because I'm really looking forward to reading all the lovely fics that always come out this time of year!

Hope you're all doing well, my flisties! ♥ ♥

Help?

Mar. 31st, 2016 01:07 pm
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I'm trying to write something, and what I really need is some examples of a long drawn out penetrative sex scene. Does anyone have any fic recs with something like that in there? Any fandom, any slash pairing will do. I'm not going to plagiarize anything, obviously - I'll work out a way to kick myself in the face before I do anything like that - I just would like a sense of what to concentrate on, how to make it seem like it lasts longer than it takes to read the sentences, if that makes sense? If anyone could help me out, I would greatly appreciate it! ♥
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A few other people were doing this stats thing last week, but it took me a while to work out a) how to use the stats page on ao3, and b) my total word count after holiday fests. But I finally worked it out, yay! So, here's my stats for the year 2015:

My five fics with the highest hit counts are: Unexpected Consequences (16097); The Rewards of Bravery (15003); Special Magic (7444); Make My Demons Run (6947), and Teach Me (5099).

Including holiday festfics, I wrote a grand total of 14 stories last year, and 11 of them were for the different fests I signed up to throughout the last 12 months, holy shit! My grand total word count for the year was a whopping 181,583!! That's like, two entire novels, I'm completely shocked.

While I'm here, I thought I'd list the fests I joined in last year, just so people truly understand how utterly crazy I went:I mean, man, that's a lot of fests, right? I had a lot of fun, but I will admit to getting a bit stressed out over it, so I don't think I'll be doing quite so much in 2016. Erised will be a thing, obviously, and probably also Smoochfest if they have a theme that calls to me, and I also signed up to [livejournal.com profile] hd_remix, now that I have a few fics in my arsenal for my writer to choose from. Everything else will just have to be down to if a prompt inspires me so much I can't stay away.

And now I think I'm getting a bit addicted to this ao3 stats page...
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Problems with writing slash for years and then suddenly switching to het and panicking about it:

  1. "Hang on, how can they be 'chest to chest' when there are breasts in the way? Oh, no, it's cool, they're squashy enough."

  2. "No no no, fingering is easier from the front, not the back, especially when clothes are still on."

  3. "WAIT. WHERE DID THE COME GO??"

Man, writing about dicks is so much easier, I think I'll go back to that, tbh.
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Hey everyone! *waves tiredly*

It feels like it's been forever since I last posted anything (although it's probably been closer to a few weeks), I've been SO BUSY OH MY GOD. But anyway, I have a week or so now to myself before going back to the grind, so I thought I'd take a few minutes to chat with you all!

life stuff )

I think that's it? I have yet to do any holiday shopping, so I know I'm going to be frazzled in a few weeks. Oh also, my tumbledryer has crapped out on me, so until the repairman gets here I'm stuck hanging everything over radiators, so my laundry is slow going, which sucks. But anyway! How is everyone else? Much love you you all ♥
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Hello lovely flisters! I'm desperately trying to find the time to finish writing my gift for [livejournal.com profile] hd_erised as well as my gifts for [livejournal.com profile] hd_owlpost, and I was wondering if someone would have the time to beta this little story for me? It's H/D (obviously), a little under 3k long, NC-17 rating, with some angsty post-war thoughts and emotions. My usual beta is currently working really hard on her own Erised entry as well as going through mine, and I don't want to have to ask her to fit this in as well, so any help would be greatly appreciated! I just need someone to point out any glaring errors, and basically tell me if it sucks or if it's okay.

Thanks in advance, and happy weekend! ♥
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I totally forgot to claim this fic! Now I have to go and reply to all the lovely comments!

Title: Of Infinite Longings
Rating: R/Mature
Word Count: 6,500
Summary: Draco likes books. Harry doesn’t, but he thinks he might like Draco.
Content/Warnings: A lot of talk about books being the best thing ever; author’s shameless use of characters to explain why books are the best thing ever; books, basically.
Author's note: Dear prompter, my brain decided that you meant Muggle literature, I hope that’s okay. None of the quotes used are mine, I just borrowed them to help make my point about books being awesome. Title taken from the poem by Rainer Maria Rilke.
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Good Lord, it's been ages since I've posted on here! I have lots of reasons why, so I'm gonna tell you all about them, because why not?

  • READING

I've been reading a lot, ever since my mum bought me a Kindle for my birthday. It took me a bit to get used to, because I'll admit it, I am a bit of a book snob - I prefer the weight of the book in my hands, the feel of the paper beneath my fingers, the smell of the pages as I turn them. I think it adds to the reading experience, that it grounds the thoughts and emotions a story takes you through in something tangible, real. I'm also a techno-failure; technological stuff tends to fail around me quite a bit, for no reason I can ever work out. HOWEVER, I've kind of fallen in love with my Kindle recently. Partly because it's so easy to get a new book and start reading it immediately (although my bank balance has protested that fact this month), and partly because LGBTQIAP+ fiction is so much easier to get ahold of. Bookstores tend to just keep a small collection in their one tiny little shelf, and I sometimes find Amazon hard to navigate to get to the stuff I want. But all these little Recommendations For You and links to Amazon Kindle buttons on Goodreads makes it a lot easier for me to find the type of stuff I'd like to read on my little Kindle. And over the past couple of weeks, I've read about 30 M/M fiction books! And it's been awesome.

  • LECTURING

I'm going back to lecturing next week! It's been two years since I've done it, as my overseeing professor went on a sabbatical to write her next book, but now she's back, which means I am too! I'm so nervous, but also really excited, because I get to sit around and talk about my favourite things for 12 weeks, and watch my students have their minds blown as we go through the course material. What do you MEAN Supernatural is a Christ Narrative? Listen and learn, little grasshopper. So yeah, for the next 3 months, I'm going to be chatting about Harry Potter, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Supernatural, and a load of other contemporary entertainment and their connection to Christianity. I can't wait to have our first little discussion about my own Atheism (it always comes up, and they're always so surprised, bless them).

  • BOOKCLUB

[livejournal.com profile] gracerene and I have just started up a very low key, hopefully very fun, online bookclub! I hope y'all will want to come and join in; we're starting in October, and we're gonna read a book a month, and then all get together to talk about it! Come and talk about books with us!

  • WRITING

Unfortunately, I've kind of... stalled on my Erised fic. My main problem is that I'm not sure where it's leading, and while I'm used to writing that way, it usually helps if I have some idea, but this time there's nothing except for a few scenes I can see in my head. It's frustrating, so I tried to turn my hand to the few Owl Post gifts I've signed up for, and they're not working for me either. And then of course there's my original fiction, where I know how I want that to play out, but for some reason the words just won't come. I'm hoping that if I just leave it for a few days, I can get my head into the space of teaching again and then the words will just come to me whenever I have a break from that - it's worked in the past, so maybe I'll get lucky again? My recent bout of insomnia hasn't been helping either - it's been 10 days since I've had a decent night's sleep, and I'm about to lose my mind I'm so frustrated. Oh, well, can't be helped I guess!

So yeah, that's me. What have y'all been up to recently?
lauren3210: (merthur)

Okay, as you all know, Make My Demons Run was my submission for this year's smoochfest! I LOVED writing this, guys, just so, so much. I love music, especially songs that tell an epic story, and I was so excited when I saw the prompt given for a story to be written based on two of Metallica's most epic songs: Unforgiven I, and Unforgiven II. James Hetfield wrote the first song about himself, about how he still feels complicit in the religious reasonings of his parents that led his mother to her death, in the ensuing alcoholism and anger issues that he dealt with and pushed his relationship with his wife to the edge. Perfect for Draco, right? The second song is about moving on from those mistakes, about accepting that while what he has done in the past may be unforgivable, that doesn't mean that there is no future for him. It's about learning that other people also have things in their past that they feel are unforgivable too. It's about realising that unforgivable doesn't mean unlovable, that it doesn't mean the end of everything. What a great tie-in to Harry and Draco, don't you think?

I don't usually plan my stories out much when I write them. I tend to start off with a vague scene in my head that encapsulates the prompt I'm working from, and then I work out how to get there while I'm writing. Sometimes I write out a vague bullet-pointed plotline, but what I end up with rarely even vaguely resmbles what I started with (also the word count somehow ends up way higher than I predicted). But this fic was different, because it spoke to me on such a personal level. I too have things in my past that I can't forget, things that I can't forgive myself for. There are times when I too think that I'm not deserving of the love my family and friends give to me, times when I sometimes stop and wonder how I could have just moved on from those things because how could I think that I have the right? I think we all have moments like that in our past, albeit maybe not to the extent of either Draco's or what Hetfield thinks about himself.

So this fic became very important to me, not just on a personal level, but also in regards to how I feel about the character of Draco Malfoy, and the ways in which I think Harry may have reacted in the aftermath of the war. These two songs became questions about these boys in my head: How would Draco feel about the things he knew to be right but never acted upon? Would Harry think about some of the things he'd had to do and hate himself for them? And while I thought about these questions, thoughts of how I could express that through the reimagining of these two songs began to form.

So, I've written this “DVD Commentary”, for anyone interested in seeing my thought processes as I wrote this story.

DVD Commentary )

Beta?

Jul. 6th, 2015 09:36 am
lauren3210: (merthur)
I was wondering if anyone on my flist would like to volunteer to beta read my [livejournal.com profile] hd_eighthyear fic for me? My usual beta has been very quiet for a while, and I don't want to disturb her if she's busy with RL things, so I could really use someone to go over this fic for me, if anyone feels inclined? It's almost done, and it's about 7k long (which is fairly short for me, yay!), and I just need someone to go over it and point out any mistakes I may have missed in my readthroughs. Thanks in advance! <3
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I'm looking for someone to be an Alpha reader for an original story I have been working on, and I wondered if any of my lovely flisters would be kind enough to volunteer? Let me tell you a little bit about it, to see if it interests any of you :D

The Story:

It's a crime thriller, so there is some blood and gore, some of which is contained in crime scenes, some that happens to the main characters. It's also an M/M romance, although the 'romance' aspect kind of takes a back seat in favour of exploring the ways in which the two characters connect with each other.

My Progress:

I have 10 chapters (roughly 40k in total) pretty much ready to go, with another 4 chapters in need of some serious editing, plus another 8-10 chapters mapped out. I'm expecting the story to end up somewhere between 90-100k once it's finished.

What I want:

I'm not looking for SPaG or anything like that. What I want is opinions, on everything from plot development to characterisation, to story structure. I want someone to tell me what works, what doesn't, what's almost there but needs something extra. I also want someone who isn't going to be afraid to be completely honest with me, and isn't going to pull their punches when telling me what they think - I promise you I can handle it, even if you ultimately tell me that it's awful and I should stop immediately before I hurt someone.

If anyone thinks they might have both the time and inclination to help out with this, I would be eternally grateful. I do already have two readers, one writer and one book-blogger, but I really would like someone from within the slash-reading world to give me their thoughts, to round it out. Let me know in the comments if you think you might like to help, and we can talk more!

Love y'all! <3
lauren3210: (merthur)
Title: Stuck in the Middle (With You)
Prompt: Prompt no.1
Word Count: 12,000
Rating: PG-13
Contains (Highlight to view): A whole lotta fluff! S
Disclaimer: Harry Potter characters are the property of J.K. Rowling and Bloomsbury/Scholastic. No profit is being made, and no copyright infringement is intended.
Epilogue compliant?: LOL nope.
Who is pregnant?: *Draco and one other FC. *
Notes: Pretty sure this is my first H/D fic with no smut, so er, sorry? I've written a few angsty things recently, and this was a perfect opportunity to just write some fluffy stuff all about babies, so I hope you'll forgive my self indulgence. Dear [livejournal.com profile] eidheann_writes, your prompt made me giggle the moment I read it, and I hope you enjoy what I did with it!. Huge thanks to [livejournal.com profile] indyonblue for looking through this so quickly for me, and hugs to the mods for such a great fest!
Summary: Harry had thought that it couldn’t get much worse than the synchronised vomiting that was morning sickness.

I had great fun writing this, and although I never managed to get it to a point beyond a PG-13 rating, I kind of didn't care. I sort of just wanted this story to be a light-hearted, feel-good story, full of all the trying things expectant parents go through in the run up to a birth. Fun Fact: All of the things that happen to Draco and Pansy in this story have happened to me during my three pregnancies (and what happened to Harry too, actually). Yes, my husband literally crouched down in front of me and asked, "Is it coming now?", all while holding himself as though expecting to catch a wildly thrown rugby ball. Turns out even medical doctors can freak out and act stupid when there is a tiny human on the way! I hope y'all enjoyed it!

omg hi!

May. 28th, 2015 04:16 pm
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Wow, it feels like it's been forever since I last posted! May is always a hella busy time for me work wise, and I've been up to my eyeballs in last minute edits, printing meltdowns and marketing fiascos, but I'm beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel, so yay! I've still got to finish betaing a fic for a friend and I'm gonna get right on that, but first, I thought I'd give a quick update on what's been happening with me!

Best Day Evah )

Post social anxiety whinging )

Writing stuffs )

Oh, and while I'm here, how proud am I to be Irish right now? It's SUCH a big deal, because this is a country that still tries to ban abortions in hospitals on religious grounds, so focussed are they on the rules of Catholicism. This is the country that my uncle had to leave because he was gay, the country that my grandmother had to leave because she fell pregnant out of wedlock. So for the entire country to recognise that love is love is love, and that it should all be celebrated no matter whom it's between, is such a wonderful thing. I'm so proud of my entire heritage right now tbh.

So, that's me! Hopefully I'll have some time to come on here and read and comment a bit more come June! Hope everyone else is doing well! <3
lauren3210: (merthur)
It feels like ages since I've posted anything! I've been busy writing fics for all the fests I signed up to, but I've also been feeling a little bit down recently. Nothing too serious, I just haven't been my usual, slightly manic self. I long ago came to the realisation that one of the worst things about bipolar disorder is that there's never any logical reason for the mood swings, but that doesn't stop me from getting frustrated with myself over it. So I did what I usually do when this happens, and retreated into fiction, and this time I chose to rewatch a lot of past favourite series. And that led me to some thinky thoughts on the different ways I ship, so I'm going to ramble on about that under the cut:

come ramble with me )

In other news, I've finished writing my last fest fic! It's sitting with a friend right now, who will hopefully tell me in a few days where it's shit and where it's not so bad, and then I can hand it in and I'm done! Do you know, I have written SIX stories so far this year? The word count for all of them adds up to over 100k, good God. Thankfully though, I now have a little time to let my fingertips grow back, so yay for that!

In other other news, my eldest turned 15 last week! I kind of hate it, because a second ago I had this red faced squalling little bundle in my arms, and suddenly there's this young woman in front of me, with boobs bigger than mine and a penchant for piercings. Which was one of her birthday presents: she got an industrial scaffolding piercing in her ear, so now she has a massive bar sticking across it. It looks good, actually, and I'm now thinking about having it done myself. The next body modification on her list is a lip piercing, but she has to wait until she leaves school to get that, so I have a little breathing room. Who the fuck said kids were allowed to grow up? Someone make it stop, because I don't like it!

Anyway, merry month of May to my flisters, I'm really enjoying reading all your daily updates! <3
lauren3210: (Bucky)
Writing update! I am done with my [livejournal.com profile] harrydracompreg fic! It's with my beta now, so I'm finally able to move on to my fic for [livejournal.com profile] hd_smoochfest!! I'm so excited, I've been waiting for EVER to finally get around to writing this one - it's truly the perfect prompt for me and I want to know who submitted it RIGHT NOW so we can start being best friends forever. I'm so pumped up for this one, I have all the lyrics transformed into scenes in my head, and I have it all nicely outlined, and I'm starting to get annoyed with having to do things like brush my teeth or talk to the kids, because all I want to do is WRITE it's so awesome.

Frustrating things! I had to get up hellishly early this morning (4 AM) to travel into the office. I work from home mostly, only having to go in when there's a dept. meeting, which only happens once a month, usually. But for some stupid reason, this guy I work with - in another dept., but still higher up the chain than me - wanted me to come in for a face to face meeting. So okay, I go, but when I get there, it turns out he couldn't come in, so we had to have the conversation via conference call, WHICH I COULD HAVE DONE FROM HOME. And I still don't even know why he wanted me there, I'm like, dude, I just edit the books, I don't sell them, why are you talking to me about marketing? So I put on my thoughtful voice and put my earphones in the other ear, and just hummed along until he went away. And then I used my office desk to write fanfic, because really, they deserve it for making me get up that early.

Amusing things! After I left work, I went round to a friend's house for a late lunch and a catch up, and I saw her laptop open on an AO3 page (I didn't even know she read fanfic!). When I pointed it out to her, she said, "Oh yes, I wanted to ask you about that. Because there's this writer on here and her username is a lot like your email address." So I'm just like, erm, oops? But she just goes on with, "I know, it's probably not you, but there's this story on here and it's really good, and it was written for this bit of Harry Potter and Draco MalfoyTumblr art and it's gorgeous!" So I just really quietly say, "Is it called Unexpected Consequences?" And she just stares at me until she starts laughing while I go really red, and the upshot of my afternoon is that now my best friend is busy reading all of my gay fanfic, while probably also calling her MOTHER, who is best friends with mine, so I'm waiting for my mum to call me and ask me if there isn't something better I could be doing with my free time. Which, no, mother, there isn't, go back to your knitting.

Happy Monday, y'all! <3
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Title: Unexpected Consequences
Pairing(s): Harry/Draco; background Hermione/Ron, Ginny/Dean
Rating: NC-17
Warnings/Content: bottom!Draco (apparently this should be a warning); 8th year fic; some OOCness due to plot reasons.
Summary: Harry was going back to school. He was going to play Quidditch, sleep in lessons, hang out with his friends, and generally just enjoy being a kid for a change. And he was also going to do it while being bonded with Malfoy, because apparently life was just going to continue throwing curveballs at him. Harry didn't know why he expected anything different.
Word Count: 39,200
Disclaimer: 'That Picture' is a work of and belongs to alekina. The general non-profit, fair-use disclaimer for Harry Potter fanfiction and fanart applies.

Okay so, just so I know I have this on my own blog, here is my fic for the Picture Flash Fest that was hosted over at [livejournal.com profile] hd_remix the past week, now that its posting is completed. I haven't posted a fic in installments since my Teen Wolf writing days, so this was a fun experience for me. I originally wrote it as a (hugely long) oneshot, but [livejournal.com profile] vaysh and [livejournal.com profile] raitala very sweetly asked if they could instead turn it into chapters and post one on each day that the fest ran. (I guess I was the only participant ridiculous enough to write nearly 40k, haha!) It's had a lovely response so far, and I hope that everyone who gave this WIP a chance over the last week enjoyed the final piece.

I loved writing this story, tbh. I actually wrote it in less than a week, because work and other fests got in the way of me getting to it before then. But the prompt hit me so strongly that the words flew from my fingertips and the story unfolded before I really knew what had happened. I love when writing strikes me that way. There are probably things I would change about this story, had I had the time to think about it more, but I think a lot of writers feel that way about their fics. But I actually really love this story a lot, I think because it turned into a fic that I like to read myself, and I included lots of tropes that I love the most. It evolved into a story just for me, rather than just a fic written for a fest with someone else's idea in mind. I guess that might be why I love it so much. But anyway, here it is, for anyone who has managed to miss out on its posting and wants to read it now it's complete!
lauren3210: (merthur)
Alert the press! Call the media! Because yes, it's true! The fic I have been wrestling with for a fortnight - and complaining about vociferously - has finally come to an end! Hallelujah praise the Lord, amen. Actually, let's give thanks to St Patrick, because the luck of the Irish was definitely with me today!

So, as I'm sure you'll all be pleased to hear, that's one fest fic down and three to go, and unless I get conked on the head and lose my brain entirely, there'll be no more whining from me, because - shocked gasp - I actually know what I'm doing for these ones!

And now I'm off to celebrate with a pint of Guinness and a gaelic word game with my mother, and whoever stumbles first has to tackle my mountainous ironing pile! (I may have been practising for just this very moment tbh.)
lauren3210: (merthur)
I've just had to ask for an extension for this fic, and I feel so bloody awful about it. I've NEVER had to do this before, other fest mods will attest to this, I'm usually one of the first to hand in my submissions. I really wasn't going to do it, and I typed my fingers to the bone yesterday trying to get it finished, but I just couldn't quite get to the finish line.

However, on the plus side, if I do get granted an extension, I think that yesterday I had a sudden brainstorm on how to make this fic good. I've been struggling with this story, as you guys know by now what with all my whining, but now inspiration has finally hit. So, by the grace of the mods, hopefully I can now hand in something I really feel good about, even if it is a few days late.

Has anyone on my flist had to ask for an extension before? How do you deal with the guilt?

ugh

Mar. 13th, 2015 12:11 pm
lauren3210: (merthur)
omg, someone tie me to this chair and make me finish writing this damn fic! I'm procrastinating so badly I almost feel as if I should ask for an extension (which I have NEVER done before) but I know that if I do I'll just use the time to procrastinate some more. I have never had such trouble writing before, what has gotten into me?
lauren3210: (merthur)
Where I whinge about writing instead of actually writing, because procrastination is the best tbh )

In other news, I got the [livejournal.com profile] hd_smoochfest prompt I wanted! I'm so excited, it plays right into my favourite kind of stories, I cannot wait to get started! (Although it may have to wait a while, I still have 3 other fests to finish writing for first goddammit!)

Hope everyone had a fabulous weekend, and that Monday isn't too much of a downer for anybody <3
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