10 Day Meme

[lauren3210]

Day 1 - Ten random facts about yourself
Day 2 - Nine things you do everyday
Day 3 - Eight things that annoy you
Day 4 - Seven fears/phobias
Day 5 - Six songs that you’re addicted to
Day 6 - Five things you can’t live without
Day 7 - Four memories you won’t forget
Day 8 - Three words you can’t go a day without
Day 9 - Two things you wish you could do
Day 10 - One person you can trust

Day 7: Four memories you won't forget

1. Giving birth to my babies. Each moment was filled with agony, terror, confusion, and happiness - and the odd laugh - and I will never forget a second of any of them.


2. The day my grandfather died. I remember where I was standing, what I was wearing, what my mum was wearing, the way the sun slanted through the window, every single detail as though it happened a second ago. It was my first experience with death at an age where I could truly understand what it meant, and I'll never forget it.


3. That time my friend walked into a patio door. God, you had to be there, but it was the funniest thing. My friend Rhys had gone to his car to get some tapes (showing my age there) and I was cold so Mark shut the patio door. Then we both turned around just in time to see Rhys walking back across the lawn with his hands full of cassettes, look up and smile at us, and then slam straight into the door. Tapes went flying, Rhys fell backwards into a bush with his glasses all askew, and Mark and I were paralysed with laughter so much that we couldn't do anything to help. Best teenage memory I have tbh.


4. My first time in a psychiatric hospital. I have been admitted onto psychiatric wards a lot since my teenage years, and my stays have all blurred together over time. But I'll always remember how I felt that first time, how calm I was, how the conflicting thoughts in my head were just... quiet, for the first time that I could ever remember. It was new, and it was scary, but at the same time it felt like such a relief, to not have to pretend, to just set aside that pressure I had felt all of my life until that point. To know that it was okay to break, because that's what I was there for. Those two weeks were the calmest my head has ever been, and when my therapists tell me to imagine a safe space during my sessions, I go back to that time, maybe just to make sure that I never forget it.