This is a very important topic and obviously takes precedence over writing erised ;)
When I joined fandom I thought this topping and bottoming preference thing was weird and childish. I was so above that.
HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA.
I am such a dick.
It took me a while to realise that I had a preference for Top!Draco, and longer still not to feel ashamed about that. I think I'm getting worse, though. I used to just prefer it, then STRONGLY prefer it, but this year I read the most perfect fic which was everything I adore and the dynamic between them was so perfect and it was also so well-written... and then HARRY TOPPED. OMG, I was honestly really AFFECTED by it. It genuinely upset me and I had to stop reading for a while. I had been so immersed in the story and then that happened and... ugh, I was a mess.
I tried to pick it apart afterwards, and I think it wasn't so much the actual fact of penetration (I seriously HOPE not, because I don't want to become one of those people who leaves prompts saying "ON NO ACCOUNT MUST A PENIS TOUCH DRACO'S BODY"). I think it was the (to me) sudden and OOC personality switch that came with the sex. I like the sex to reflect their characterisation and the dynamic between them, and I'm not talking about one being 'the girl' or 'the weak one'. I mean something like a need for control, or a need to give up control. A need to submit / dominate, or to be the aggressor maybe? If that gets flipped around without warning and without justification then I'm left feeling unhappy.
Conversely, I can read stories where Draco likes to bottom, where Draco is the sub, where they switch, whatever, as long as the characterisation fits and I can make it mesh with my view of the pairing. I've also WRITTEN bottom Draco, lots of times, and it's usually my head canon for them when they first start fucking if they're still young. I like to write inexperienced!Harry, and experienced!Draco, and I often imagine Draco would let Harry fuck him first, partly because it will just be easier, more pleasurable, and less likely to freak Harry out, haha. But in my mind he's totally doing it as a stratagem to get Harry hooked, not because he secretly desires the hero to take him up the arse.
I'm making no sense. I am a mess of contradictions. Basically, what I beg is, don't give me a delicious Toppy!Draco and then have him turn feminine or weak in the bedroom. Not that I think bottoming is feminine or weak. OH GOD I CAN'T EXPLAIN LOLOL.
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Date: 2016-10-29 08:24 am (UTC)When I joined fandom I thought this topping and bottoming preference thing was weird and childish. I was so above that.
HAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAAA.
I am such a dick.
It took me a while to realise that I had a preference for Top!Draco, and longer still not to feel ashamed about that. I think I'm getting worse, though. I used to just prefer it, then STRONGLY prefer it, but this year I read the most perfect fic which was everything I adore and the dynamic between them was so perfect and it was also so well-written... and then HARRY TOPPED. OMG, I was honestly really AFFECTED by it. It genuinely upset me and I had to stop reading for a while. I had been so immersed in the story and then that happened and... ugh, I was a mess.
I tried to pick it apart afterwards, and I think it wasn't so much the actual fact of penetration (I seriously HOPE not, because I don't want to become one of those people who leaves prompts saying "ON NO ACCOUNT MUST A PENIS TOUCH DRACO'S BODY"). I think it was the (to me) sudden and OOC personality switch that came with the sex. I like the sex to reflect their characterisation and the dynamic between them, and I'm not talking about one being 'the girl' or 'the weak one'. I mean something like a need for control, or a need to give up control. A need to submit / dominate, or to be the aggressor maybe? If that gets flipped around without warning and without justification then I'm left feeling unhappy.
Conversely, I can read stories where Draco likes to bottom, where Draco is the sub, where they switch, whatever, as long as the characterisation fits and I can make it mesh with my view of the pairing. I've also WRITTEN bottom Draco, lots of times, and it's usually my head canon for them when they first start fucking if they're still young. I like to write inexperienced!Harry, and experienced!Draco, and I often imagine Draco would let Harry fuck him first, partly because it will just be easier, more pleasurable, and less likely to freak Harry out, haha. But in my mind he's totally doing it as a stratagem to get Harry hooked, not because he secretly desires the hero to take him up the arse.
I'm making no sense. I am a mess of contradictions. Basically, what I beg is, don't give me a delicious Toppy!Draco and then have him turn feminine or weak in the bedroom. Not that I think bottoming is feminine or weak. OH GOD I CAN'T EXPLAIN LOLOL.
I really should go and write my erised as well :D