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Happy Monday, everyone! I hope everyone had a good weekend? It's a good day for me, because I finally have my laptop back, yay!! *jumps up and down* I'd just decided that I was going to try and post at least once a week, even if it was only to say "I have nothing to say", because I'm trying really hard this year not to just withdraw and go quiet on people, and then my laptop broke. It took Ben a couple of weeks to get around to looking at it for me, but it's up and running again now - although just barely, and I'm going to need a new one soon. But at least I now have something to type on, even if I am frantically backing up everything I write to gdocs just in case the laptop dies permanently. So anyway, hi!

Reading woes (here, have a random rant):

Has anyone ever read something that has made them so angry they're speechless? Because I did that last night, and I'm still not over it. The book was written by one of my favourite m/m writers too, which made it doubly shocking. I tried really hard to get the anger out in a GR review, but then I stupidly read the other reviews and I got angry all over again! Basically, the MC's love interest is this emotionally abusive cuntweasel (a word I used a lot in my review, because it fit so eloquently), but for some reason everyone else seems to think that's hot. "He's so awesome, so patient, so sweet, why is this book so short I need more Jack!!" UGH, so gross. And I'm so mad about it.

Comment woes (less of a rant, more thinky thoughts):

I got another weird comment on my bonding!fic, Unexpected Consequences the other day:

Fantastic drarry. Hermione turning into a Draco fangirl was not my favorite though. In particular her making excuses at the Burrow was entirely offputting given Draco nearly killing Ron and being the reason a werewolf could maimed Bill for like. That was shockingly unbelievable in an otherwise epic fic.

Still all in all well done.

And at first I wasn't too bothered, because I thought the 'complaint' (for want of a better word) was written respectfully, and everyone's entitled to their opinion, so I just replied with my own and a 'thanks for reading'. But the more I think about it, the more uncomfortable I get, especially after I went back to the moment in question in the fic and reread it. Because all Hermione does is agree with Harry's reasons for agreeing to the bonding spell with Malfoy, and helps him come up with ways to make sure that no advantage is taken of him while in that position of powerlessness under Harry. That doesn't sound like a 'fangirl' to me, but just a basic decent human being who cares about people's rights - the rights of all people, not just the ones she thinks deserves them. And I guess it makes me a little uncomfortable to think about, because the Trio are meant to be these shining examples of humanity at its best, doing the right thing because it's the right thing to do, and if these people aren't supposed to respect whomever they come across, what does that say about us all? I just... can't stop thinking about it I guess, and I'm probably thinking way too deeply about one person's opinion of my stupid little fanfic, but I guess I just... don't understand.

Okay, now I'm gonna go do some work in the hopes of getting paid, and then try to read a book that won't give me a rage conniption! Have a great start to the week, guys! <33
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I’ve been thinking about writing a post about this for quite a while, mainly because every time I sign myself up to a gift fic fest such as [ profile] hd_erised, I am never entirely sure what I want to say when it comes to my preferences. I mean, if anyone were to ask me which I prefer, I would say Top!Harry/bottom!Draco, however, some of my favourite H/D fics ever feature explicit Top!Draco/bottom!Harry, and I’ve been trying to figure out why that is for the longest time. And so, as I’m currently in the home stretch of my Erised fic and have a lot of other projects that could do with some time being spent on them, I am of course procrastinating terribly by thinking about this instead so, here I am!

Read more... )

Okay, I’m gonna go write now, because I’ve procrastinated long enough (damn it). Back to your regularly scheduled Friday night on LJ!
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Why oh, why is the onset of winter always heralded by viruses of every kind you can think of? Well okay, I know why, so nobody throw any science books at me, but ugh, I wish that just once I could appreciate the lovely colours and fresh breezes that the changing of the seasons bring without also wishing I was dead. Ben's been suffering from an ear infection that just won't go away, so I've had to suffer along with him while he's been at home the last two weeks. Eryn has got a hacking cough to rival that of the best chainsmoker, keeping us all up at night while she barks and barks until she almost throws up. Imogen has caught a stomach bug from somewhere, and has been spending the last three days sprawled across my lap and searing me with her fevered skin, and I can't breathe without needing to sneeze, or sniff, or cough, or just generally gargle snot until I drown in it. Madison is the only one who seems unaffected, and we all hate her quite a lot right now.

On the plus side, I have managed to start my [ profile] hd_erised fic, after months of planning but without the actual words. Well, now I have words - not to mention an awesome alpha reader and cheerleader, whom I am going to owe the biggest present ever by the time I'm done. I also have another H/D fic in the works, which I might just post on its own - which I've never done before, all my previous fics have been either birthday gifts or fest submissions. Of course, I'm also busily planning my gifts for [ profile] hd_owlpost, which I'll get around to writing once the Erised behemoth is completed. I've been writing more original fic too, my muse having finally returned after the 60k loss earlier this year. I'm struggling with a hundred different ideas, which is better than staring at a blank page wanting to cry, so, progress!

And, I think that's pretty much all I have to update, really, other than my RL being crazy busy lately. I know I haven't been around much, and I've missed you all, not to mention things like birthdays and mini fests and [ profile] online_bookclub reviews and chats, and don't you just hate that feeling when you remember something only to find it's too late for you to do anything for it? Yeah, that's pretty much my life right now, which sucks, but it's looking like it might let up a bit soon, which will be great, because I'm really looking forward to reading all the lovely fics that always come out this time of year!

Hope you're all doing well, my flisties! ♥ ♥
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Hello everybody! Long time no see, I know, but I've been so fucking busy the past few months, something had to give and it had to be fandom, because life sucks, basically. I'm still only really here for a fleeting moment, but I really wanted to say a massive thank you to the lovely people who sent me birthday messages yesterday, especially those of you whom I know I missed doing exactly that recently with as busy as I have been. So, THANK YOU, my darling, lovely, wonderful friends, and replies to those messages are forthcoming, I promise!

I actually had a really nice birthday, despite the chaos in which I am currently living! I was taken out to dinner at a very fancy restaurant, and we even managed to encourage my teenager to come out of her bedroom for a few hours - which is a very big feat indeed. Eryn got her GCSE results through last week, and she did just as brilliantly as we'd expected, and since then there's been a flurry of activity in getting her ready to begin sixth-form college next week. Oh, and she got her eyebrow pierced, because heaven forbid she look ordinary. It actually goes quite nicely with her blue hair. Madison started at secondary school today, and so far, so good. They've placed her in a class filled with students from her old school, which they did on purpose in order to keep her comfortable. They're really pulling out all the stops for her, which is nice to see in our current education system - they don't usually work quite so hard. Hopefully, she'll settle in nicely. I've got my fingers crossed.

I'm currently struggling between two stories to write for [ profile] hd_erised, and I haven't had time to bounce ideas off my beta yet, but I'm really hoping I'll find some time over the next couple of weeks. The good news is that I have at least written a couple k of each story idea so far, so there is some progress happening.

Aaaaand my time is up, because now the baby is calling for me and Ben needs me to iron something for him (men are the worst, I swear). So anyway, just a quick note to let y'all know I am in fact still alive, and to say thanks once again for such lovely birthday messages - every one of them made me smile!

Hope you're all doing great, my lovelies! <3
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It's been forever since I last posted on here, although I've been around, I just haven't had much to say. Also, I've been incredibly busy! You'd think that in the run up to summer holidays, things would begin winding down, but apparently, just when my brain has gone all sluggish in preparation for having the kids at home for a month and a half, the schools decide that this is the moment when they want me to do things! Ugh!

Eryn has finished all of her exams, and is now waiting impatiently for her results. She's been to her new college to have a look around and meet her new teachers, and has tentatively decided on her A level subjects, depending on what her results are: English Lit, English Lang, History and Sociology. However, considering the fact that this child wouldn't be caught dead reading a book, I think she's somehow decided that I'll be doing the work for her. Hmm... I had to organise her "anti-prom" (because she didn't want to go to the official one - she had no interest in wearing clothes she doesn't like, while listening to music she can't stand and talking to people she hopes never to set eyes on again), and she and her friends had a barbeque down by the canal, and they seemed to have had a great time. We're now in the process of bleaching her hair, because she wants to dye it blue/green, and she looks very weird with the current blonde - although she was born white-blonde, it's been a while since we've seen her with that colour. Also, she has a girlfriend, a really sweet girl who looks at Eryn as though she's hung the bloody moon. It's so cute!

Madison has done her SATs exams, and we should be getting those results soon. Because she's moving up to senior school in September, the past few weeks have been a flurry of school outings and parties, as well as visiting her new school to meet her new teachers. There was a bit of a fracas with that - one particular teacher who didn't yet know that Madison is on the Autism scale told her off for something, which ending in a bit of a meltdown, but thankfully it doesn't seem to have dulled her excitement. They're putting her straight into the Gifted and Talented teaching track, which has the double effect of being a bit quieter for her at the same time as giving her enough work to satisfy her, which should be good. She's got her prom next week, and we've still yet to buy her a dress for it, so we've got to go shopping this weekend. Maybe I'll get a second to myself in a few weeks' time...

Imogen has had their hair cut into a little pixie cut. We pretty it up with clips and bows for when she's a girl, and put gel in it when he's a boy, and so far they love it. Their school report came out the other day, and apparently Imogen is really intelligent... if they could just stop daydreaming long enough to actually do some work. I have no idea what to do with this child, tbh.

I haven't been doing much in fandom recently, because even when I do get the odd hour to myself, I haven't really been feeling it. (I am still betaing though - I haven't forgotten about y'all, promise!) Instead, I've been reading, and trying to update my GR account. However, considering I own at least 4,000 books and have read a bajillion more, it's kind of a losing battle, but I'm trying! I still haven't been doing much writing, although I do intend to join in with [ profile] hd_erised - if I get in on time! Losing those 65k words has really knocked my muse about. I have written about 10k of a new original story, but I'm not sure if I like it enough to keep going. I think if I could just recreate what I lost, I might get my groove back, but so far, nothing is really grabbing me. Ugh, I feel so pathetic to be still whining about this months later.

And er, that's it, I think? See, this is why I haven't been posting - I have nothing to say! Maybe I've just become a really boring person - does that happen to everybody once 35 begins staring at you on the horizon? Ugh, I'm so old and pathetic and boring, and I think I'm turning into my mother. Can someone please kill me
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I haven't been around for a while, a combination of work, holidays, and terrible internet connection due to all the storms raging across the west of the country recently. You'd think that wouldn't affect cable, but apparently, you'd be wrong. Either that, or Virgin just sucks in general, I don't know. But anyway, I wanted to pop on here just to wish you all a very Happy New Year, and my hopes that 2016 is an awesome year for every single one of you! ♥

I've seen a few of you on my Flist talking about your fic writing stats, and they're all incredibly interesting to see! I'm going to wait a bit to look at mine, because I want to wait until after the various holiday fests have been revealed so I can talk about them, too. So for now, have a post about my New Year's Resolutions:

Last year, I had quite a few resolutions, and I managed to keep exactly ONE of them: stop biting my nails! Granted, it didn't happen until August, but I now have lovely long nails that can be painted, for the first time since I was 7 years old, so I'm feeling quite accomplished about that. I can even type with them, it's amazing!

So this year, I'm going for just one resolution: Stop Smoking. This is my first day without, and it's taken me about an hour just to write this post, because I'm so used to having a cigarette when I write anything. Which is frustrating, because I have ideas for at least 2 fics, and another original story that I want to write down. So, I have no idea how well this resolution is going to go, because at the moment I'm all determined and shit, but my need to write without struggling over it might win out, so we'll see?

Aaaand I'm gonna go now, because I accidentally read a McShep fic yesterday, and now I'm having serious Stargate: Atlantis cravings, so Netflix is calling my name. Chat soon, my lovelies! ♥ ♥
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Good Lord, it's been ages since I've posted on here! I have lots of reasons why, so I'm gonna tell you all about them, because why not?


I've been reading a lot, ever since my mum bought me a Kindle for my birthday. It took me a bit to get used to, because I'll admit it, I am a bit of a book snob - I prefer the weight of the book in my hands, the feel of the paper beneath my fingers, the smell of the pages as I turn them. I think it adds to the reading experience, that it grounds the thoughts and emotions a story takes you through in something tangible, real. I'm also a techno-failure; technological stuff tends to fail around me quite a bit, for no reason I can ever work out. HOWEVER, I've kind of fallen in love with my Kindle recently. Partly because it's so easy to get a new book and start reading it immediately (although my bank balance has protested that fact this month), and partly because LGBTQIAP+ fiction is so much easier to get ahold of. Bookstores tend to just keep a small collection in their one tiny little shelf, and I sometimes find Amazon hard to navigate to get to the stuff I want. But all these little Recommendations For You and links to Amazon Kindle buttons on Goodreads makes it a lot easier for me to find the type of stuff I'd like to read on my little Kindle. And over the past couple of weeks, I've read about 30 M/M fiction books! And it's been awesome.


I'm going back to lecturing next week! It's been two years since I've done it, as my overseeing professor went on a sabbatical to write her next book, but now she's back, which means I am too! I'm so nervous, but also really excited, because I get to sit around and talk about my favourite things for 12 weeks, and watch my students have their minds blown as we go through the course material. What do you MEAN Supernatural is a Christ Narrative? Listen and learn, little grasshopper. So yeah, for the next 3 months, I'm going to be chatting about Harry Potter, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Supernatural, and a load of other contemporary entertainment and their connection to Christianity. I can't wait to have our first little discussion about my own Atheism (it always comes up, and they're always so surprised, bless them).


[ profile] gracerene and I have just started up a very low key, hopefully very fun, online bookclub! I hope y'all will want to come and join in; we're starting in October, and we're gonna read a book a month, and then all get together to talk about it! Come and talk about books with us!


Unfortunately, I've kind of... stalled on my Erised fic. My main problem is that I'm not sure where it's leading, and while I'm used to writing that way, it usually helps if I have some idea, but this time there's nothing except for a few scenes I can see in my head. It's frustrating, so I tried to turn my hand to the few Owl Post gifts I've signed up for, and they're not working for me either. And then of course there's my original fiction, where I know how I want that to play out, but for some reason the words just won't come. I'm hoping that if I just leave it for a few days, I can get my head into the space of teaching again and then the words will just come to me whenever I have a break from that - it's worked in the past, so maybe I'll get lucky again? My recent bout of insomnia hasn't been helping either - it's been 10 days since I've had a decent night's sleep, and I'm about to lose my mind I'm so frustrated. Oh, well, can't be helped I guess!

So yeah, that's me. What have y'all been up to recently?
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Hello lovely flist! After having a bit of a post-holiday slump, today I woke up in a rather manic mood - high 4s to low 5s all day, with no sign of it stopping so far. So, as I'm trying to focus my energy and channel my mania into something easy and safe, I thought I'd share with you guys the kind of day I experience while in a highly manic episode!

Okay so, since waking up at 5 this morning, I have:

  • Scrubbed every inch of the bathroom

  • Cleaned the kitchen and bleached the baseboards

  • Washed, dried, folded and ironed 4 loads of laundry

  • Watched 14 episodes of Hawaii Five-0

  • Read two novellas on my Kindle

  • Washed the windows (outside and in) all around the bottom floor of the house

  • Hoovered all the upstairs carpets and mopped all the downstairs wooden flooring

  • Designed a new tattoo that I'm thinking I might put on my wrist

  • Written 2.5k of my Erised fic, plus 4k of another H/D fic I've been workng on

  • Changed all the bedding in the house

  • Defrosted and cleaned the fridge and freezer

All that, plus having an hour long chat with my best friend about our plans for my birthday on Saturday, dancing with my baby, having a Nerf War with my middle baby, and plotting out revision timetables with my eldest baby, AND I'M STILL NOT DONE. I wish I had something else to clean, but everything is bloody spotless, so, now I'm basically running across my Friend's Page and commenting on everything, as well as reblogging absolutely everything I see on Tumblr. I have so many tabs open that I can't actually see what any of them are they've all been shoved so close together, and now I'm vacillating between reading Steve/Bucky fanfic and Steve/Danno fanfic, because apparently I can't have enough ships.

Oh! Speaking of ships, today I also made a list of all the ships I ship enough to want to read fanfic about:

  1. Steve/Bucky (Marvel)

  2. Steve/Danno (Hawaii Five-0)

  3. Thorin/Bilbo (The Hobbit)

  4. Daniel Jackson/Jack O'Neill (Stargate: SG-1)

  5. John Sheppard/Rodney McKay (Stargate: Atlantis)

  6. Stiles/Derek (Teen Wolf)

  7. Dean/Castiel (Supernatural)

  8. Mike/Harvey (Suits)

  9. Arthur/Merlin (Merlin)

  10. Harry/Draco (obviously)

There are others I've read about, but I decided to only include the ones that I've expressly gone looking for because I needed that fix, but either way, I think 10 separate ships that each has the power to rip my soul out through my chest is enough to be going on with for now, right? It is possible that I might need an intervention...

BUT ANYWAY, YEAH. This is me in a highly manic phase, fun right? Has anyone ever seen the film Hoodwinked? Because my eldest daughter always laughs and says I'm like the squirrel who overdosed on caffeine when I get like this:

I kinda like it tbh, because I get a lot of things done, I feel great about EVERYTHING, plus I manage to talk really really fast without stuttering, which is something I can't do on normal/lower days.

Aaaaand I'm gonna go now, byeeee!
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Because why not, right? I'm not so sure about the middle bit, but the beginning and end are pretty much exactly how I tend to roll when it comes to fic I like to read:
My List )

As a multi-fandom shipper, I think these could be moved around quite a lot depending on the pairing I'm thinking about, but for general fic-reading preferences, these are pretty much right on the money. I don't have a single pairing where Actually Unrequited Pining is a kink for me, and I would read a Trapped in an Elevator fic for ships I don't even ship, haha! Creature!fics and A/B/O and Role Reversal are right down at the bottom, because I'll admit that it would take a lot to get me to read one of these by choice (seriously, only glowing recs will do it). I think it's probably easy to see by my top five that flangst is probably where I live when it comes to fic-reading. Is anybody really surprised by this, though? ;)

This was fun! I shall go around reading others' answers later, and see what we have/don't have in common, because that's always interesting to me!
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I feel as though I have been away for ages and ages, but I'm back now, so I thought I'd tell you all about what's been keeping me away. :)

Computers hate me... )

holidayyyyyy )

Fest talk )

So yeah, that's been me the past couple of weeks, and now I'm going shopping for school supplies and try to catch up on all the laundry I still have left to do, and dye my hair again because all the swimming in the sea washed out the hot pink colour so now I'm a vaguely orangey-blonde and it's hella weird. I think I'll go violet next...

Hope y'all are having a great weekend! <3
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I'm looking for someone to be an Alpha reader for an original story I have been working on, and I wondered if any of my lovely flisters would be kind enough to volunteer? Let me tell you a little bit about it, to see if it interests any of you :D

The Story:

It's a crime thriller, so there is some blood and gore, some of which is contained in crime scenes, some that happens to the main characters. It's also an M/M romance, although the 'romance' aspect kind of takes a back seat in favour of exploring the ways in which the two characters connect with each other.

My Progress:

I have 10 chapters (roughly 40k in total) pretty much ready to go, with another 4 chapters in need of some serious editing, plus another 8-10 chapters mapped out. I'm expecting the story to end up somewhere between 90-100k once it's finished.

What I want:

I'm not looking for SPaG or anything like that. What I want is opinions, on everything from plot development to characterisation, to story structure. I want someone to tell me what works, what doesn't, what's almost there but needs something extra. I also want someone who isn't going to be afraid to be completely honest with me, and isn't going to pull their punches when telling me what they think - I promise you I can handle it, even if you ultimately tell me that it's awful and I should stop immediately before I hurt someone.

If anyone thinks they might have both the time and inclination to help out with this, I would be eternally grateful. I do already have two readers, one writer and one book-blogger, but I really would like someone from within the slash-reading world to give me their thoughts, to round it out. Let me know in the comments if you think you might like to help, and we can talk more!

Love y'all! <3

omg hi!

May. 28th, 2015 04:16 pm
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Wow, it feels like it's been forever since I last posted! May is always a hella busy time for me work wise, and I've been up to my eyeballs in last minute edits, printing meltdowns and marketing fiascos, but I'm beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel, so yay! I've still got to finish betaing a fic for a friend and I'm gonna get right on that, but first, I thought I'd give a quick update on what's been happening with me!

Best Day Evah )

Post social anxiety whinging )

Writing stuffs )

Oh, and while I'm here, how proud am I to be Irish right now? It's SUCH a big deal, because this is a country that still tries to ban abortions in hospitals on religious grounds, so focussed are they on the rules of Catholicism. This is the country that my uncle had to leave because he was gay, the country that my grandmother had to leave because she fell pregnant out of wedlock. So for the entire country to recognise that love is love is love, and that it should all be celebrated no matter whom it's between, is such a wonderful thing. I'm so proud of my entire heritage right now tbh.

So, that's me! Hopefully I'll have some time to come on here and read and comment a bit more come June! Hope everyone else is doing well! <3
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Because everyone is doing it and it looks like fun and I'm bored, so why not? Get as personal or as random as you like, y'all know how I love to share :D
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Because everyone else is doing it, and I'm taking a break from betaing, so why not? Shamelessly stolen from absolutely everyone, but mainly [ profile] kitty_fic, because she did it first. (At least on my flist, anyway.)

memes memes memes )

Ah yeah, have a peek into my particular brand of crazy, it's such fun being me sometimes, haha! Love you all, my flisters! <3
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Do you ever get so angry that you feel completely impotent with rage, and you end up wanting to cry with frustration? Because sometimes I do. Most of the time I can shrug things off and not let them bother me, because I'm able to tell myself that there's nothing I can do to change the situation and that getting upset only hurts myself, so why bother. But then, there are times when I get so angry that my hands shake and my palms itch with the need to strangle someone with my bare hands. Read on for the source of my rage:

the British school system sucks ass )

misogynistic tv shows are misogynistic and also homophobic )

Phew, I feel slightly better now! Sorry for the rant, guys, hopefully y'all are having a better day than I am! :D
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It feels like ages since I've posted anything! I've been busy writing fics for all the fests I signed up to, but I've also been feeling a little bit down recently. Nothing too serious, I just haven't been my usual, slightly manic self. I long ago came to the realisation that one of the worst things about bipolar disorder is that there's never any logical reason for the mood swings, but that doesn't stop me from getting frustrated with myself over it. So I did what I usually do when this happens, and retreated into fiction, and this time I chose to rewatch a lot of past favourite series. And that led me to some thinky thoughts on the different ways I ship, so I'm going to ramble on about that under the cut:

come ramble with me )

In other news, I've finished writing my last fest fic! It's sitting with a friend right now, who will hopefully tell me in a few days where it's shit and where it's not so bad, and then I can hand it in and I'm done! Do you know, I have written SIX stories so far this year? The word count for all of them adds up to over 100k, good God. Thankfully though, I now have a little time to let my fingertips grow back, so yay for that!

In other other news, my eldest turned 15 last week! I kind of hate it, because a second ago I had this red faced squalling little bundle in my arms, and suddenly there's this young woman in front of me, with boobs bigger than mine and a penchant for piercings. Which was one of her birthday presents: she got an industrial scaffolding piercing in her ear, so now she has a massive bar sticking across it. It looks good, actually, and I'm now thinking about having it done myself. The next body modification on her list is a lip piercing, but she has to wait until she leaves school to get that, so I have a little breathing room. Who the fuck said kids were allowed to grow up? Someone make it stop, because I don't like it!

Anyway, merry month of May to my flisters, I'm really enjoying reading all your daily updates! <3
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Writing update! I am done with my [ profile] harrydracompreg fic! It's with my beta now, so I'm finally able to move on to my fic for [ profile] hd_smoochfest!! I'm so excited, I've been waiting for EVER to finally get around to writing this one - it's truly the perfect prompt for me and I want to know who submitted it RIGHT NOW so we can start being best friends forever. I'm so pumped up for this one, I have all the lyrics transformed into scenes in my head, and I have it all nicely outlined, and I'm starting to get annoyed with having to do things like brush my teeth or talk to the kids, because all I want to do is WRITE it's so awesome.

Frustrating things! I had to get up hellishly early this morning (4 AM) to travel into the office. I work from home mostly, only having to go in when there's a dept. meeting, which only happens once a month, usually. But for some stupid reason, this guy I work with - in another dept., but still higher up the chain than me - wanted me to come in for a face to face meeting. So okay, I go, but when I get there, it turns out he couldn't come in, so we had to have the conversation via conference call, WHICH I COULD HAVE DONE FROM HOME. And I still don't even know why he wanted me there, I'm like, dude, I just edit the books, I don't sell them, why are you talking to me about marketing? So I put on my thoughtful voice and put my earphones in the other ear, and just hummed along until he went away. And then I used my office desk to write fanfic, because really, they deserve it for making me get up that early.

Amusing things! After I left work, I went round to a friend's house for a late lunch and a catch up, and I saw her laptop open on an AO3 page (I didn't even know she read fanfic!). When I pointed it out to her, she said, "Oh yes, I wanted to ask you about that. Because there's this writer on here and her username is a lot like your email address." So I'm just like, erm, oops? But she just goes on with, "I know, it's probably not you, but there's this story on here and it's really good, and it was written for this bit of Harry Potter and Draco MalfoyTumblr art and it's gorgeous!" So I just really quietly say, "Is it called Unexpected Consequences?" And she just stares at me until she starts laughing while I go really red, and the upshot of my afternoon is that now my best friend is busy reading all of my gay fanfic, while probably also calling her MOTHER, who is best friends with mine, so I'm waiting for my mum to call me and ask me if there isn't something better I could be doing with my free time. Which, no, mother, there isn't, go back to your knitting.

Happy Monday, y'all! <3
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I have really vivid dreams a lot of the time, and they're usually a bit strange, full of bright colours and patches of darkness and stuff like that, but last night I had one of the worst nightmares I've had in a long while. So I thought I'd tell y'all about it, so you can see just how weird my brain actually is!

So there's this carnival, right, but it's old, everything rusted and peeling paint, old bits of wood. But all the rides are sort of crammed together, so you can step from the carousel to the swing chairs and on and on. And also, it's on a train, a train that keeps speeding up and slowing down really quickly, going over hills and down sharp slopes and stuff. Basicaly it's like an entire carnival has been crammed on top of a roller coaster, but with a roof, and on top of the roof is a shed and some other outhouse type buildings, it's all very weird. So I'm in the middle of this abandoned and crammed together carnival, having to hold on tight when the bloody train/roller coaster goes round a bend and banging into stuff when it slows down with no warning. And whenever I step up to the edge, it's always going really really fast, and I look down and can see the ground whizzing past below me so fast it's just a blur. And that, to me, is scary enough, really. I mean, how many creepy horror stories have involved abandoned carnivals, right? But oh, no, my brain has to go and make it so much worse, because there's also this creepy almost life sized doll following me around. It looks like a marionette, with the freakily painted face and wooden hands, only there aren't any strings and it keeps uttering this really high pitched laugh whenever it gets close enough to touch me, and I keep running and hiding and falling and banging into things, and I end up having to climb one of the chains for the swing chairs, which is ridiculous because I could never climb rope in gym class, I'm far too bum heavy. But I manage to get to the top of this chain, and I'm holding on for dear life while the train/roller coaster... thing flies round another bend, and I risk a glance down, and that fucking doll has climbed up right behind me, and is reaching out to grab my ankle.

And that's when I woke up.

My head is such a fun place to be sometimes. Anyway, just thought I'd share! :)
lauren3210: (merthur)
Title: If Greater Want of Skill
Author: Emjayelle
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 4947
Warnings/Contents: Non-Magical AU; Modern era; bottom!Merlin; College AU
Summary: Merlin's Friday isn't going to plan, to say the least. Especially when he takes the wrong late-night bus and ends up in Frat Row where he meets Arthur, the annoying frat boy that sits behind him in poetry class, who, by the way, is entirely to blame for the drunkenness, betting, sex, and poetry reciting that follows.

My thoughts: Okay, so I don't often rec fics; I tend to leave that to the professionals, such as [ profile] capitu or [ profile] gracerene, but I just read this little fic and simply HAD to come and shout about how great it is! Arthur's a frat boy douchebag, rich and entitled and everything else that Merlin hates. He also has really great nipples, and is kind of annoyingly gorgeous. Their interactions are wonderful in this fic, perfect and amusing banter, and I want an entire series written of just these two and their arguments. BUT, the best thing about this fic is the sex, not gonna lie. Because it's drunk!sex! With betting going on! And they fucking RECITE POETRY WHILE THEY'RE FUCKING. And then it's just a little bit cute at the end, while still being hilarious and hot at the same time. Basically, if anyone wanted to know what my absolutely favourite kink is, here it is in technicolour detail: LITERATURE AND SEX, TOGETHER AT THE SAME TIME ohmygod, stick a fork in me, I'm done.

*clears throat* Okay, back to your regularly shceduled viewing, folks!
lauren3210: (Default)
I finally finished the last fic I was working on, and boy did that turn into a huge monster, good lord. But i kind of love it a lot, so I hope anyone who reads it will like it! And now I've moved on to my [ profile] harrydracompreg fic, and I'm 2k into it so far today, so it's going well so far! I'm really happy with the prompt I've chosen, and so far it's coming together exactly how I imagined it. It's early days yet though, so I reserve the right to complain at a later date if my muse dries up suddenly!

I feel so good today. The sun is shining for what seems like the first time in forever, and I have washing out on my line - laundry always smells so much nicer if it can dry outside, don't you think? I've had a new idea for an original story that i am slowly planning out, and I'm really excited about it. None of the kids are ill, I'm not feeling ill, and Ben's not coming home from work in a bad mood because of the prick he works with anymore, so we're all feeling good. I'm in the middle of a rewatch of Doctor Who with my girls, and Rose/Ten just got their HEA so I'm doing my happy little shipper dance. And I've been nice and stable for a good long while, and while mentioning that might be tempting fate a little, it still just feels really nice to not have to consciously regulate my swings for a bit. I'm thinking I might go and read a book outside for a bit, once I've cleaned the bathroom.

What are you all up to today? Good things, I hope! <3
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